There used to be magic, there used to be laughter, there used to be moments you never wanted to end. Things felt simpler, words made more sense, winters seemed longer, cosier, springs were endless and summers shone brighter, autumns never came. Careless, happy and free roaming the streets, tackling the waves of high seas, trekking through forests by lakes and lying on the grass looking at the stars. The wind refreshing, the water cleansing and the sky infinite. I looked into your eyes and i could see the world, you looked into mine and you would see the deepest oceans, the abyss that was my soul, the unsettling depths of my thoughts. You got scared of my silence and grew distant, my abyss no longer excited you, you couldn’t see the wonders hiding in it anymore, you couldn’t see the colors or glimpses of fluorescent lights, the swirls of smiles and waves of love. You only saw darkness and despair, you no longer wanted to venture to the centre of my being, to solve the mystery of my existence and left to sail in calmer seas, less deep with clear waters, no mysteries of the deep, no surprising twists. And then autumn finally came and i found comfort in my solace and in the yellow colors of the falling leaves, in the light rain and in the crisp morning air. Every dawn a rebirth, every sunset a small death, every night a reshaping ceremony of me.
